you humor me today

no jogging this morning.

this is the first day that i've actually slept in this summer. i woke up at 5:30 am yesterday. i laid around until 7:00 and then jumped up and spent the whole day being productive. the perks and drawbacks of my crazy sleep schedule this semester.

Amy and i skated last afternoon. both of us are in terrible shape and need to get used to skating again. my legs are sore as all hell from the jogging and skating (i need real running shoes). i also spent way too much money already this week. i'm down to $1.97. a lot of that went toward dinner last night. we'll find out if that was worth it...

i've realized something about myself as of late. i used to bullshit a lot about myself when people said anything derogatory but true or close to true about me. i've always been eager to please and open to other people's opinions and criticisms. somewhere along this past year, though, i became comfortable with myself, so the bullshitting has changed. now, when people say something derogatory about me (be it true or false), i get angry and jump to my own defense, explaining rather than evading. i've had a lot of alone time this past semester. i know myself much better than i ever have and you ever will, so, if i say something isn't true, it is not true.

i need to work more. my credit debt is getting up there.