good mornin'

once upon a time.
i woke up and wondered what it would be like to throw caution to the wind. wondered how it would feel to do away with everything. to let myself be controlled by nothing. follow every impulse until i was carried to a new place to call home.
wondered where i would go.
now i've found myself on this side of the road. thumb out, begging for a chance at distance. trying to find a way to not miss this. looking for love on every damn shoreline. i'm trying to find something worth my time. thought i had found it in you. i'm confused.
or you're confused.
one of us got lost on the way home. forgot what feeling felt like. decided to hide from what could be right. would rather sit silent and lie through our teeth.
you and i should be we.
don't you see?
it's not a matter of pining for affection. it's a matter of what feels right in the morning and at night.
hearing your voice. seeing your face. all those things that keep me awake because you don't want them to happen anymore. what for?
i'll remind you what it feels like to be feeling something real.
i swear to high heaven it'll come back to you.