i've been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand

i'm very proud of something.
Joy Division is blowin' up amongst the hipsters and the cool crowds.
it has a lot to do with major fashion labels loving Ian Curtis and everything Joy Division ever did.
then, it has a whole hell of a lot to do with Control.
by the way, if you have not seen Control, go buy it.
don't rent it. the movie is worth every penny.
now what i'm proud of:

i found New Order and Joy Division all by my lonesome.

if you love The Get Up Kids anywhere near as much as i do, you are fully aware that TGUK has an amazing cover of New Order - Regret on Eudora.
that has always been my favorite TGUK cover song.
two years back, i decided i was a fool for not looking up New Order way back in the middle school days.
i fucking loved everything i downloaded.

oh yeah, and i was real into the cover of Blue Monday by Orgy way back when.
Orgy was hilarious. that song is untouchable.

anyway, i listened to New Order for weeks straight, realized Jerry Hsu and Louie Barletta shared a part in a video to one of their songs, then Tim told me 'bout Ian Curtis in passing.
he said "you know their singer killed himself. they used to be Joy Division, but the singer hung himself before their first US tour."
he told me i had definitely heard and loved Joy Division, i just didn't realize it.
he also said "watch out, he has a weird voice. it's really low."

at Amy Reid's end of summer cook out, i found her sister's copy of Joy Division - Substance.
popped it in, listened to it on repeat all afternoon, and recognized Transmission and Love Will Tear Us Apart.
i had to go buy that CD.
now i have Unknown Pleasures on vinyl, an Unknown Pleasures t-shirt coming in the mail, i'm trying to get Closer on vinyl today or tomorrow, i have an Altamont shirt that has "love tore us apart" printed all over it, i need to order the Joy Division documentary that Best Buy didn't carry, and i love Control so much.

at Taxlo, they played New Order - Bizarre Love Triangle on Halloween.
that is my be-all-end-all favorite New Order song.
i started yelling to everyone "NEW ORDER! THEY'RE PLAYING NEW ORDER!"
Claire was the only person anywhere near as psyched as me.
my preference depends on my mood, but Joy Division has been winning out over New Order for the past few months.
let's face it, New Order has much cheerier songs than Joy Division.
and not to be a negative nancy, but i've been better.

It was me, waiting for me
Hoping for something more
Me, seeing me this time, hoping for something else